I wish I was as good a writer as some of the Puritans were. The Valley of Vision is an amazing compilation of prayers. I don't have many petitions to God that I would like to put in such a structured prayer, but I think I've had one recently. I'm not going to attempt it, but I felt like writing a little bit about it.
It's not a new revelation, but I think it has hit home a little bit harder lately. I think my main struggle is pride. I really do think I'm an egomaniac. And I think the only reason I have ever done anything "right" in my life was to satisfy that pride, and not to respond to the Gospel by pleasing God with my actions.
It is humbling to realize that you've avoided some of life's evils because you have never wanted to humble yourself to say otherwise. And then you realize that you were never avoiding evil at all. I've spent my whole life trying to put myself in God's shoes that I don't even remember what my own shoes feel like.
At church Sunday I imagined that a ghost was standing in front of me, with the requisite misty blue aura รก la post-Vader encounter Obi-Wan Kenobi. I imagined this ghost as a picture of my sinful self, but on reflection, I think it was my godly self (if there is such a thing). The sin in me feels so much more real than the good, and I really identify with Paul (as we all do) when he asks from whom will come the deliverance from this wretched state. Thankfully, he reminded us of the answer.
Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord!
On another note, check this out. Taylor showed it to me, and apparently this guy is one of the two that has finished the complete course. You need a talking point for you next manly night? This guy is it!
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